but unexpectedly, this afternoon..I cried and all my emotions just came out of my chest.

It all started when my sister came home from the mall carrying her new purchase which is a pair of chucks or as what many know as converse shoes. I think i envied her and just started to feel depressed. Some of the reasons are she got an ipod, she's got new shoes, she can buy basically anything she wants because she has lots of money and she is still a freshman in high school.

While me...I don't have any new gadgets, Ican't buy anything cause I don't have that much money (I even have debts...), and I'm have to think about the application forms that I have to do for so many universities...

I think the pressure of school and getting into good universities AND my other co - curricular stuff took a toll on me. I was also thinking that my parents maybe gives so many rewards to my sister cause she's intelligent and...you know those kind of girls who are really goody goody.

And maybe because of that i felt that i really have to work hard to get what I want and it dawned on me that it is impossible since I know that I'm a lazy person and easily gets to the low esteem level. That's when I started crying...I felt pitiful and very wretchful that I even thought of myself as somthing useless and doesn't deserve to live cause  I'm a very selfish person...

My dad was like what's wrong? and my sister was like don't cry..i'm sorry. I can' t explain to them that the reason why i'm crying is not because of them but because I have internal issues. So after crying, I started playing cheery tunes oon my sister's ipod to cheer me up and eventually it worked..so I'm back to normal now...

Anyway , it's a new day tom. Which means there's more work to be done...and I'm lazy...as usual...what the heck...that's how life runs! So I should get this over with....night!

So...what's up with me? Well....I've been currently interested in various artists here in Asia and I find them very promising....Don't worry!!! i'm still gonna love all those other bands such as Panic at the Diisco and FOB and you know all those bands...Its just that I'm gonna add more music stuff here...

by the way, I'm going to make my profile kind of like a fansite for American bands and singers and also various asia artists...so if you have an open mind then go on and listen or see what I'm going to post here on my site...and hopefully you'll enjoy it...

That's it for now...still have to research about the biography of St. Ignatius of Loyola...wtf...I'm not really that holy...i'ts just hw....damn it! XD

Oh, and by the way annyonhaeseyo means hi! in korean...just some info.... :)

I woke up today crying. Why? Because i dreamt that my father is going to jail for 16 years. My parents had to wake me up because I was crying hysterically like a child who is lost in a mall or something. The weird thing is...I can't figure out why my father was put to jail when it wasn't even revealed in my dreams if he was part of the crime. Really Weird.

My mother just told me to pray about it. Well, I did pray about it cause usually most of my dreams come true....so that's really scary.

What I did most of the day was really just boring stuff. I watched jackass which i borrowed from my good friend Carbs. It was really disgusting but some scenes were really funny....well you can't stop boys being boys!

What else did i do?....oh yeah! i also updated my accounts in myspace, multiply, buzznet, friendster and other accounts....i think i have more than ten....whatever....that's it for now...ciao!